It's okay if he's got demons, I've had them too, in my past... Now I have legions of angels to slay them, but... He must love Jesus first and foremost above all else. This is non negotiable. He must be creative, a writer, a musician, an artist who understands the creative process. He must be honest and faithful. I've been too much disrespected in the past, I won't stand for any more. He must be gentle and kind with me and with others. No more abuse--physical, verbal, or emotional. He must be tender hearted. Unashamed of his own tears flowing freely when he's touched or deeply saddened. I admire that. He must love me fully as I've always wanted and deserved to be loved, yet never in my life known. Is that really too much to ask?